-by X-Japan [Album: Blue Blood]
Oh! I'm looking at you
can't control myself
nothing, but pain for me
* wipe your tears from your eyes
just leave and forget me
no need to be hurt anymore
# go away from me now
I don't know what is love?
no need to be hurt anymore
you said, "I miss you so much
everynight thinking of you
and facing loneliness"
But when you feel sadness
never can I stay with you
I'm not the one you need
close your eyes and forget me
there's nothing I can do anymore
I lost my way
I've been walking in the night of tears
there I found someone was holding you
as the night was falling down
with my love also vanished my vision of you
my heart is cold now
* repeat
you said, "I need you always
everyday thinking of you
and living loneliness"
repeat
# repeat
can't find my way
X-Japan's music somehow always creates this special connection to my emotions. it's the way they phrase their lyrics that really makes their music really good for my emotional therapy. haha. and not just the lyrics, the rhythm and chord progression makes their songs all melodramatic and full of emotion...moves my heart. it sets the right tone and mood for me to just pause and ponder about the thoughts that float through my warrens of thought.
indecision. probably the biggest thing that is bothering me this very moment. or rather, the issue that crosses my mind almost every passing moment. on one hand, there's the indecision about my degree plans - commerce(accounting & finance) or economics? there's still time, but time will pass like the wind.
-discerning these winter winds-
the other source of indecision would be from my current emotional state. i know i should follow the Lord my God in all my ways... but what should i do if i can't see the way He's trying to show me? i probably failed last semester because i was trying to find a reason to love. too much reasoning, in fact. it's like putting ticks on a checklist. and when you find that the checklist is becoming more irrelevant... all else fades.
love needs no reason. we only need reasons for our actions... and the reason would be love
there should not be a " i love you because..", ever. when the 'because' factor fails, things fall apart. and that's ugly.
what we really need, also that which is the most important, is the "...because i love you". do this, if you never ever want to be guilty of starting something so significant in your life and not giving your best into it.
i'm in between two options, but i really don't want to be given options. and i hate calling it options. i just want to follow where my heart and my God leads me... and there i'll be.
